still crying...when will it all end?

right after talking to anna to get a ride to church tomnorrow, kevin callled..i'm glad i alreday had a ride..or i might have given in...as it was it was stil hard...sigh...i will be ok...i bawled after i hung up...and called herman...luckily fo rme he was home and also had nothing to do on a saturday evening...it's one of his last to spend with his family before he leaves fo rgermany....he's a good friend...listens well and lets me cry and scream...i'm going to bed now...i accomplished nothing today...except part of my launndry(itis still down in the dryer)...and i ate half a box of swedish fish and drank 2/3 of a gallon of milk...i'd be a real mess if i drank alcohol.....